Escaped to Blo once more yesterday. Party being thrown by my good friend, the same host as before. In my book I call a character based off of him William. Well Willy here throws a party and I come up to the city monday night. I picked up the Cat and we proceeded to an earlier dinner invitation with Willy and three others at his place.
As others started slowly trickling in I proceeded to get shit-faced beyond all recognition. I don’t know why especially. I don’t hardly drink anymore but me and another guy got two others to play us at beer pong and then I forgot how much whiskey goes into a glass and the equivalence of 8 shots later I was praying to the porcelain God.
It was a stupid thing to do, because I lost sight of those I was with. Willy was playing host, The Cat was dancing around as she does and I puked my brains out through my stomach before midnight. I met a few people I hadn’t seen in ages and they left before I could compose myself. That was no good. A couple of them were girls from high school that I used to be very close to, and it was a shame they saw me for the first time in ages as such a mess.
By midnight, with the help of vomiting constantly, sipping water and munching bread I was sober again. A rather fascinating transition. There were people who got tanked and were gone the whole night. It almost feels like I willed myself into coherent thought. Like something inside my head screamed for me to wake up and come back. It’s not that I don’t enjoy having a couple drinks, but it’s that big brother complex, you know?
The folks here at work say the night was a failure because I didn’t hook up with some random broad. I don’t know, but I’ve never been good with the whole “fuck and flee” mentality. It’s sickening to think about. There was so much going on, I love the kids there so much but I’d love them to use their brains as opposed to their genitals every once and a while. Willy, One of the Kapi twins and I ended up driving people home, talking things out and taking care of people in perfect harmony. It’s funny. One minute I’m mindlessly hammered and the next I’m giving rides home.
I think it’s okay to do that though. It’s okay to have a little to drink but stay sober enough to watch out for people. I didn’t hook up, I didn’t fuck off, I didn’t fight. I’m okay with that. I would like to have someone to hold my hand at least. Give me a hug or fall asleep with me. Appearently that’s very “gay” of me if the workplace is to be believed, but to hell with them.
Got up, Got Denny’s with Willy. It was a good night and the morning wasn’t bad either. Donnie Darko now. ❤