Saw an old friend tonight. It’s funny how you can talk to someone you haven’t really hung out with regularly for half a decade and yet tell them deeper things then you tell the best buddy you see everyday. I appreciated the time spent with that person. It wasn’t just me spilling my guts on the dashboard for dual analysis, but her as well. It’s interesting how presenting those kinds of things in front of those who once meant much but now mean comparatively little can help you get it out. Punched the dashboard. Threw my keys. Hit the steering wheel. I never show frustration like that anymore. It was a poor lapse in composure, but I don’t think she minded as much. I just hope I didn’t spook her.
Upped the weights I use on “Sculpt” days from 10lb to 15lb. It’s not much of an improvement compared to all the other guys who played sports in high school, but it’s an improvement none-the-less. I keep getting the feeling my chest is growing from the inside, as if a constant reverberation is slowly excreting muscles to widen my pectoral muscles and shoulders. The work-outs get me high and I love it.
It’s possibly the best part of my day when I strip off my sweat soaked clothes and step into the hot jet of the shower. At that point I have nothing to do, nowhere to go, and only aching muscles to bother me. I admire my body’s improvements in the steamy haze like a narcissist. I get to know the particulars of each pain, and lay out what little more I have to do. I just wish I could sleep right. Each
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